Lent in everyday language. Day Twenty.

i have written a number of posts… all saved in draft form… many unfinished.. over the last several days of my Lenten journey. It has not been difficult for me to find time to become aware of God’s presence in my life, rather it has been extremely difficult for me to protect my practice of writing.

as a mother of four with a toddler still at home, i am reminded of the fight we have to wage in order to carve out sacred time. some of us do this in our practice of exercise and we will not miss a work out that we have scheduled. for others there may be other practices that are completely worth fighting for and take precedence over all other negotiable activities.

what i recognize in this season of my life is that writing is a practice worth fighting for. it is a practice that helps me to peg down some meaning in day to day life and create containers for my wandering thoughts and dreams.

but i will live in the grace and goodness that my days are full of conversations and prayers for others, delighting in and disciplining my children, and sometimes the very thing that i want to do is the last thing that i get to do, for now.

so thank you for wandering along through Lent with me. part of Lent is about reconciliation, and sometimes reconciliation has to begin within us where we tend to be the most critical and unforgiving. live in expectation for great great things to come when Jesus is risen… and with Him our very life will be made new again.. on Easter and in every season of our life that invites renewal.

Examen

1. Where did I notice God’s power today?

Our church is going through a journey through Scripture for about 6 months covering a time line of the history of God’s people. We took time Sunday to discuss the place in history where the Holy Spirit is sent by Jesus. I share with you not from an intellectual but from an experiential position. We experienced something new. We experienced an invitation by God to surrender to the Holy Spirit. So many people came forward to pray and to worship God and to be healed. In a new way, our church said yes. All weekend I had been expectant that something would happen. I called friends to pray, I spent time worshiping at home with my  children, and even wrote down some of the things I felt God was showing me. I was so expectant that God’s power would show up at church on Sunday in ways that might be truly transforming. Have you ever had that sense that God wants to do something immeasurably more? That kind of power is like a tsunami building (thank you Georgia for the analogy) and will at once come crashing into our ordinary lives. That is the power I started to see… the building at least.. and some of the waves beginning to form.

2. Where do I need to notice God’s power?

All day I contemplated the idea of walking in authority. I wondered what it would look like for me to walk through my days if I had already received all that God wanted to give me in terms of authority, organization, conversation, prayer, faith. I am so hungry for more of God and I am missing something.. some critical piece that causes me to give up my truest sense of God and give over to the ideas of others. It comes when people around me don’t have faith and I think “Do I really want to go there?”. It happens when I am ignored and I think “Do I really want to keep putting myself out there?”  It happens when I have a dream over and over again and someone might offer me a dose of disbelief and I take it in and convince myself that the dream is unrealistic. What is more real? God’s power to give me a dream and bring it to pass or fellow humans along the road of formation who themselves have lost their own ability to dream? I need God’s power to simply grab hold of that which He put in front of me.Give me your power to do Your will

Philippians 3:12 Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me.

 

How do these questions help you notice God today?

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2 thoughts on “Lent in everyday language. Day Twenty.

  1. Amy,
    I am here today, with you. With God. The desire for more. The knowledge that He has given everything we need. And the reality that I continue to play hide and seek with doubt, and fear, and double-mindedness.

    Yet, I know that God is right here in the middle of this life of mine, of yours. Ours. In the details. We are being formed. Like a tug-o-war game: one minute the world, the next the Truth, then the flesh. Occasionally the enemy.

    But it is Life! Adventure. With the greatest Companion of our souls. And with one another.

    A little girl from my church recently defined sin as “ignoring God.”

    I am so thankful for the discipline of examen, that helps me rediscover God in each day that I take the time to listen.

    Personally, it is one of those “needs” in my life that I must make room for at night (preferably). I find the most freedom and joy in first thanking God for the gifts of the day (as you pointed out earlier). It has made keeping this practice so much easier, and helped cultivate in me gratitude and an increasing awareness of God’s presence in very details of life.

    Even those times of doubt and forgetfulness of God’s presence.

    Blessings sister,

    Jan

    • I did think of you when I initially started this daily examen. You are one of the few people I know well who really made this a part of her spirituality. You are one of the ones who also reminded me so often about God’s consolation and desolation.. both completely a part of God’s presence with us.

      Thank you for being here with me…
      Amy P

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